next year i can't go visiting during chinese new year.. something happened.. those who know.. it's not a secret.. just dun wanna mention.. or rather i dun wanna say.. no pt telling me u r sorry.. i'm being callous but there's nothing 'sorry' can do.. it can bring him back.. nor can it lessen the grief.. so dun mention it in front of me at all.. and i'll act as per normal.. i dunno why i'm typing this entry.. but i'm typing it...